I could really use my hamock, a warm night and a clear sky tonight…unfortunately the only one of those that I do have is the hamock…which means I can’t sleep under the stars, even tough that’s my hearts longing tonight. Other than that, the only words I can find to convey what’s on my mind aren’t even mine…
Winding Road
By: Bonnie Sommerville
Garden State Soundtrack
(not all lyrics included)
It feels like a flood in my head
And that road keeps on calling me
Screaming to everything lying ahead
And it’s a winding road
I’ve been walking for a long time
I still don’t know
Where it goes
And it’s a long way home
I’ve been searching for a long time
I still have hope
I’m gonna find my way home
…
It’s a long way home
It’s a long way home
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With Open Hands
By: Henri Nouwen
(p. 125)
Dear God,
I do not know where you are leading me.
I do not even know what my next day,
my next week, or my next year will look like.
As I try to keep my hands open,
I trust that you will put your hands in mine
and bring me home.
Thank You, God, for your love.
Thank you.
Amen.
Question for Meditation:
Do I fully trust that with God at my side, I will find my true home?
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maybe I can say something…
God, I am a mess. I need you so, so much. Please be here. Forgive my unbelief. Forgive my idolotry. I know you are all that I need…if only I could truely believe it. Lord is my searching, my longing…my desire all for nothing? I need you more than I need air to breathe. What am I searching for anyway? And how long will I look for it? Will I know it when I see it? Or will I only realize it when I finally see you…face to face? You are so beautiful and amazing…how could I ever forget what I have already found and discovered through being adopted by you. You have brought me this far…don’t let me give up tonight. I need you more than I will ever realize…Lord, please be here with me…tonight…and forever.
Amen.
You are in my prayers tonight Amy. This feeling is all too familiar to me…when I feel myself getting angry, sad, etc. I repeat scripture in my head to combat those feelings (at times more successfully than others). I found this Psalm today and found it particularly encouraging, and poignant. here’s part, but the whole thing is great.
Psalm 25
14 The LORD confides in those who fear him;
he makes his covenant known to them.
15 My eyes are ever on the LORD,
for only he will release my feet from the snare.
16 Turn to me and be gracious to me,
for I am lonely and afflicted.
17 The troubles of my heart have multiplied;
free me from my anguish.
18 Look upon my affliction and my distress
and take away all my sins.
19 See how my enemies have increased
and how fiercely they hate me!
20 Guard my life and rescue me;
let me not be put to shame,
for I take refuge in you.
21 May integrity and uprightness protect me,
because my hope is in you.
I also shared one of the quotes from your previous posts with my Bible study last week because it hit so far home to me. thanks
i also love that song.
Funny, I was dozing in an uncomfortable lawn chair in the warm sun yesterday afternoon (played hooky from work for the afternoon) and thinking along the same lines. I need a hammock. Trouble is, the mosquitoes will be out in force in about a month, so realistically, I’d never use it.
I can add a heartfelt ‘amen’ to your prayer at the end too. No answers, but maybe it helps you to know you’re not alone in your feelings of being very small and weak in God’s Big Universe. It helps me anyway…