I kirked out tonight.

I sat around for over an hour watching one person exhibit self control (or what would have been self control for me…if my understanding of the situation was correct)…only to crash and go off when the pressure turned on me. 

They don’t really know me

They don’t really know what can distract my mind from God

They have no idea

I tried walk away, but when I found myself in a spot where walking away wasn’t an option, instead of biting my tounge and blocking them out…I went off.  I started.  I stoped.  And then I went off completely.  Maybe it wasn’t that bad, but I’m pretty sure I was cursing…which is me going off…

God, clearly there is still a lot to do in me…help me see what could have/should have happened on my end.  maybe I should have kept quiet and let them continue their conversation.  I don’t know what was right or wrong or shouldn’t have mattered… all I know is that I let my instinct and reactions take over…please help me be more self controlled with my tounge.