So, I’ve debated whether I should talk about this on my blog, but who am I kidding?  I’ve talked about everything else in my life on my blog…why wouldn’t I share this?

So, for all of you many (*ahem*… 3) readers out there…*drum roll please*

I have a boyfriend!

yup, that’s it.  Wingfiea has a boyfriend.

For the last few months I have been on this roller coaster ride of emotion, trying to understand feelings, push beyond fears, and uncover God, who I believe to be standing in the middle of this maddness called life.  And this is where the journey has led me – excited, cognizant of fear, and realizing that I have no idea what I’m doing.  It’s kinda fun.  

For over 5 years God has walked me through a season of singleness.  As hard as it was, I can honestly say it was extremely necessary and beneficial, both for me as well as the opportunities I was able to embrace as a single woman.  There were things I had to learn, skeletons I had to face, people I had to love and serve, a God I had to follow. 

Now I’m walking through very new ground.  It’s scary and exciting.   Truth is, I have big hopes and big fears and the only thing I can be certin of today is the reality that in the midst of it all is Christ.   I don’t know what the future holds, and I don’t know what I’m doing (or how to do this relationship thing), but I think it’s good… for both of us involved.  I see this as a new season to grow and learn new things, for skeletons to be faced, a time to love and serve in a new context, and to keep following God as he leads. 

At this point, I have no tid-bits of wisdom.  Truth is, I’m a chicken who’s  independent and relationally challenged.  I am simply learning and trying to understand how to do this new part life.  Luckily, God has allowed me to walk through it with another imperfect pilgrim – a lover of Christ, a friend, and a man that I’ve deeply cared for and respected long before today.  And surprisingly, I’m slowly realizing and seeing a love and respect expressed in return…one that I’ve never before seen.  disarming.  beautiful.  foundational.  I’m not gonna lie…it’s pretty sweet.    

Abba, thank you for what you’ve given today…
please work in this relationship
 and bring Glory to your name.
Amen.