In about a week, my church will celebrate it’s one year birthday. Though there was a growing team of people meeting for a little while longer than that, it was a year ago that they had the “launch service” – the service that marked the official start of the church.
I was there at the launch service – my first time at this new church. I had been praying for changes in my life and, more specifically, a new church when a flyer showed up at my door. I went that first week and have been going ever since.
This past weekend we had our church’s first Woman’s Retreat. We had space for 30 women to go, and after some last minute cancellations and fill-ins we arrived at the site with 29 women + 1 speaker.
Even though this was my first ever retreat for women, I ended up being part of the planning team. My responsibility was to prepare a prayer room (which also meant encouraging the prayer team ladies to sign up and help pull something together) and then at the last minute was asked to be a discussion group leader when another was unable to fill the slot. Immediately after the first planning meeting, the prayer team started praying for the event and for the ladies that God would be bringing this weekend.
Leading up to the retreat, our prayer team came up with some ideas for the prayer room and we scrambled together supplies. By 3 PM Friday, we were at the house. We walk in the door only to realize that the prayer room is an open space just off the main entrance filled with a hot tub and exercise equipment.
As we started processing the difficult situation before us, I thought of a dear friend who loved the quote, “when life gives you lemons, make lemonade” and encouraged the team that we can still make this space work if we get a little creative. We moved some of the exercise equipment out of the room, we rearranged the remaining pieces, plugged in a few night lights, and found 2 dividers to create “walls” where none existed. When the prayer room opened that night, it actually turned out to be a pretty decent space. Once we were done setting up, the prayer team walked the entire house praying over spaces, rooms, and each attendee by name.
Later that night the guests arrive…and God starts to work.
Over the course of the weekend I saw girls engaged in conversations, connecting, laughing, and relaxing. We were encouraged and challenged by our wonderful speaker. In discussion groups, the women opened up and “got real” about what was going on in their life and what God was (or wasn’t) doing. Tissues went flying, we cooked too much food, and I think we even got a complaint called in to the local authorities because we were being “way too loud” during worship.
Sunday afternoon, I was the last person to use the prayer room. I sat there praying and praising, feeling completely overwhelmed by what God had done:
- Women who I know have been seeking community and feeling like they “don’t fit in” sincerely connected with at least 1 new person, if not more on this trip.
- Several women had very deep and personal encounters with God…the Holy Spirit was so evident by Sunday morning’s worship session that you could taste it.
- I “peeked in” on the prayer room several times over the weekend to see women praying, having their devotional, and partaking in the prayer room activity.
- We didn’t have Sunday morning discussion groups, because by the end of the talk and worship time, 2 women had decided that they wanted to get baptized. Everyone ran out to watch and celebrate on the beach together. One of these women gave me the honor to be one of the two to go in the water to baptize her.
By Sunday night I found myself overwhelmed again as I saw the connections and comments flying across the walls of the ladies’ Facebook pages. (oh the movements of His hand may I never miss…)
I think it’s funny to know God and have faith in God, but then find ourselves surprised by what He actually does in different situations. Months ago I confessed how scared I was that I might not be able to do what He had called me to do. I am continually brought back to God’s exhortation to Moses that the fruit of his obedience would be a sign to him that God has sent him. This weekend I felt like I saw and was affirmed that God has not only brought me and others to this place for this time, but gave me a personal reminder of HOW BIG HE IS. Sometimes God moves to show the unbelieving generations who he is…and at other times He moves to remind his children that he alone is God.
I left Sunday afternoon feeling a strong conviction that I need to obey him and be present in the service and ministry opportunities He has put before me, today. Being obedient here and now will move me into whatever plans he has for me in 1 months, or 6 months or years into the future. They may be different, or more of the same. Regardless, if I focus too much on what may or may not lie ahead, I might miss the beautiful movement of his Hand today. This weekend I saw His hand…and I am in awe at how good, tender, and completely faithful He is to His daughters.
As I reflect on all that happened, I find myself especially surprised by grace. You see, it is the grace that comes from Christ that enables us to stand as a co-laborer with Him, appointed to bear fruit for His Glory (2 Cor 6:1, John 15:16). We are able to serve out a calling (no matter how big or small it may seem) because of His Grace. We do not deserve it, nor are we entitled to it…yet, we are allowed to experience it.
I am not in any way responsible for what happened this weekend, but I am tasting the sweet blessing that comes from the steps of obedience that have been placed before me and the team of people I serve with. I don’t know if it is the culmination of months of praying and planning, or if it the simple realization that God is living and active today, either way this feeling…this “surprised by grace” place is one I hope to sit in for as long as He’ll let me.